Sally: I’ve been looking for you, big brother. Will you please write a letter to Santa Claus for me?
Charlie Brown: Well, I don’t have much time. I’m supposed to get down to the school auditorium to direct a Christmas play.
Sally: [hands a clipboard and pen to Charlie Brown] You write it and I’ll tell you what I want to say.
Charlie Brown: [sticks pen in his mouth] Okay, shoot.
Sally: [dictating her letter to Santa Claus as Charlie Brown writes it for her] Dear Santa Claus, How have you been? Did you have a nice summer? [Charlie Brown looks at her]
Sally: How is your wife? I have been extra good this year, so I have a long list of presents that I want.
Charlie Brown: Oh brother.
Sally: Please note the size and color of each item, and send as many as possible. If it seems too complicated, make it easy on yourself: just send money. How about tens and twenties?
Charlie Brown: TENS AND TWENTIES? Oh, even my baby sister!
Sally: All I want is what I… I have coming to me. All I want is my fair share.
It’s no big revelation that this is the way the world thinks now. Everyone wants his/her fair share. . . by which we mean more than our fair share, because we know we deserve a lot more than what the world will give us.
I’ve been thinking about how people are with each other. It seems rare to have someone say please and thank you to those who are doing their jobs–why? Because it’s their job. Perhaps you are walking through a crowd, and someone bumps you. . . do they apologize? Nope, they just keep on walking, perhaps thinking to themselves that you should be the one to apologize not them. Everyone’s looking out for number 1.
While discussing this subject, Vintage Sparrow said she was reminded of what’s said in the scriptures, “. . . men’s hearts shall fail them.”
I’ll be honest, my heart is failing me because I don’t want to love people anymore. Too many people hurt you and don’t care that they do. I don’t want to be charitable and serve others, because no one’s going to serve me in return. Why should I go out of my way to help someone if they aren’t going to help me in return?
Then I am reminded of Christ.
He loves us deeply, and we reject Him. I’ve been learning about God’s emotions. He isn’t numb to hurt feelings, though He is God and has a higher way of expressing them/dealing with them. We hurt His feelings-I hurt His feelings when I refuse to talk to Him about something I’ve done which I don’t want to admit to. I break His heart when I refuse to love His children and serve them. I break His heart when I refuse to let Him tell me He loves me.
How often does God help us when we don’t deserve it, and in return gets nothing from us? As the scriptures say, I am an unprofitable servant. He blesses me, protects me, saves me, provides for me and then I turn around and forget about Him, not saying thank you or acknowledging His gifts to me.
I wish I could forget the world, feel God’s love for others, and then serve them according to those feelings. Unfortunately, I let the cold teachings of the devil harden my heart and block me from being able to forgive weaknesses and remember my own. I want what I feel is owed to me–my fair share. But, in all reality, I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve a fair share of anything wonderful.
How grateful I am for Christ. How can I be grateful enough, or show my gratitude to Him for blessing me with the things I am not worthy of?
I can’t.
BUT, I can try to be a little kinder. I can say please and thank you. I can say “I’m Sorry” to those I offend. I can pray for help in forgiving those around me, with a sincere desire to find that love for them. I can love my family and serve them instead of forgetting that they are there. In short, I can try a little harder.
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